National State of Alert:
(as of 3-8-04)

Personal State of Alert:
(as of 3-8-04)

Reason for Personal State of Alert:
- So this is post-college life? Really? *shivers*

- The Passion of Christ featured a deleted scene where Christ called me out and told me "You're next"

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joelthecat.diaryland.com

Age 24 Defeat
2005-11-21 - 3:14 p.m.

My clean soul's been made dirty by the crap I've been pouring in my eyes
and my ears
my love for life is in arrears.

And I want to throw it up
Start all over
Rid myself of this
Jumbled, misinformed self
that has come to be

Born from neglect, birthed in passing
in an trailer park kitchen while I'm sucking down a cigarette

Make some sense of me
I'm begging you
Take from me confused motions and false starts
Make some sense of this
Please help me out
Just this once, get me on the right track again

This dull aches overwhelming and I'm choking
down this urge to tear
at my chest and pry it out and lay it on a table
trying to look at this tumor with its teeth and eyes
and matted hair

Maybe this creature
Will make me money
When it's outed
and exposed

And afford me with
new reasons to come to prose

but who knows... I've felt this way before.

Reason for Terror # 82:

Using phrase "da bomb" unwittingly in phone tapped conversations could lead to arrest and beatings by the FBI, local authorities, and hip police.

Reason for Terror # 81:

There was a little bit of mold on that bread you had this morning.

Reason for Terror # 80:

When evening falls, you can try to drive away; but the moon will be following... always following...