National State of Alert:
(as of 3-8-04)

Personal State of Alert:
(as of 3-8-04)

Reason for Personal State of Alert:
- So this is post-college life? Really? *shivers*

- The Passion of Christ featured a deleted scene where Christ called me out and told me "You're next"

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Anything That You Want
2001-11-20 - 1:10 a.m.

"I'll play, yeah I'll play- speed it up or slow it down, say the word, I'll make the sound... anything that you want.... all I want from you is a word or two..." -Beulah

So yeah. The quarter has drawn to a close. I've been bad about updating, but I'm headed home soon, so it's very possible that I'll be updating more from there. That or avoiding the net altogether- that's what happened last time I was there for a week, despite all logic. I don't know.

I don't like the feeling that yet again my time is being mapped out for me, that "favors" are over-riding time I should be spending on myself. Poof.

I'm writing this under high probability of being "found out." My roommate, who I've decided *not* to tell about my journal, is right behind me, and could be turned around from his computer (we're at the lab,) and staring at me type every single word. I wish to address this possibility now.

Eddie: if you read this, that's fine. You're mentioned a coupla times in here. I never went to town on you though, so don't worry 'bout that... and I think it's mostly okay stuff. But yep, you hit the "jackpot" if you're trying to find out secret stuff, I suppose. That's fine... I don't have that many secrets anyway. I ask of you one thing though- I don't want to know if you're reading this or not, so don't mention my journal. It'll allow me to not be over-sensitive as to what I do and don't say in here... and I can be more honest in stuff. So read away- just keep the lips sealed, please.

I spent Saturday, all afternoon and evening with Matt again. I found out he's a) still quiet, b) has "first year syndrome," where he's anti-femme, and public displays of affection, c) a pessimist, d) mostly serious and e) a top. I could deal with a through d, but... agh!

Kidding... what bothers me for real is that I'm still not ruling him out. It is simply because of the challenge factor, and that other than mild "teases," 90% started by me- we haven't done anything yet? Am I keeping him on the potentials list until we have some kind of rollick? Am I waiting to use him, then drop him? Am I that kind of guy? Cuz really, there's a lot of things saying "no no no, this won't work," but still... I tolerate much due to cuteness. I also think the fact that my jokes and stuff have almost no effect on him intrigues me. Well... that, and the fact that he's into experimental with various illegal substances... and I want to do Ecstacy still, and he might be someone to do it around. Great reasons to look forward to someone, huh?

"Speed it up or slow it down, say the word, I'll change the sound" -Beulah

Mama I'm coming home.... soon... eep. Let's hope this doesn't suck.

Reason for Terror # 82:

Using phrase "da bomb" unwittingly in phone tapped conversations could lead to arrest and beatings by the FBI, local authorities, and hip police.

Reason for Terror # 81:

There was a little bit of mold on that bread you had this morning.

Reason for Terror # 80:

When evening falls, you can try to drive away; but the moon will be following... always following...