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Personal State of Alert:
(as of 3-8-04)

Reason for Personal State of Alert:
- So this is post-college life? Really? *shivers*

- The Passion of Christ featured a deleted scene where Christ called me out and told me "You're next"

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Nap, Crapple, Pop
2001-08-18 - 1:02 a.m.

"I paid my money, I'm going to see all the movie, and it's going to be good, I'm telling you people it's gonna be real good, cuz I paid my money" -Fear of Pop

So, after yesterday, where I had craziness, chillin in Queer World, today was a dose of "Half Comatose" World. I went to work, slacked the HELL off, talking to the temp worker, Melissa, on her last day... telling me about her breakup. I felt kinda bad, but she was handling it amazingly well, and I'm really proud of her, and like her for that... she's so rational, and fair with herself, it rocks. I didn't bring myself to mention too much about my recent wackiness to her- I'm pretty much only good to do that in here.

I re-watched the final episode of Queer as Folk, I got to see Jonathan today after a long hiatus. The whole Brian/ Justin thing had me crying, but thanks to a cleverly placed pillow, they couldn't tell. Ha! As if I'm that good of a hider of things. They probably knew. At least they will now that I'm writing this here. I figure they probably both know about this diary, but they don't say anything. This is fine with me, I prefer it that way, as a mystery. I feel less obliged to censor myself that way.

I think the Queer as Folk episode got to me moreso because it coincided with my June 26th post and breakdowns of that period. I put it out of mind, for now... I suppose I am well.

I had a gin and tonic for the first time in my life, and a "KiKi" or a MiMi, or something like that... no- a Chi Chi! Yeah, I think that's it. They were good... they got me a bit messed up, but not uncontrollably so. I wound up sitting through the Queer as Folk episode once it was put on so that the extra hour would help me sober up enough to ride home. I made it, I was super-safe, and at about 73% sobriety... so I suppose that's not that bad. I do just want to pass out now.

I have been eating a lot less than before recently. This isn't a bad thing, I am about at my target weight, and eating just about right, actually. Not over-doing it, and I don't feel like I'm underdoing it. I'm eating when I'm hungry- even though for lunch today I had a leftover McDonald's cheeseburger, and I felt like I was forcing it. Lotsa water... meaning lotsa rest room stops.. but whatever- that's what the FDA wants out of me anyway, isn't it?

Dirty Pop, nSync? How 'bout Fear of Pop? Thanks Ben Folds.

Reason for Terror # 82:

Using phrase "da bomb" unwittingly in phone tapped conversations could lead to arrest and beatings by the FBI, local authorities, and hip police.

Reason for Terror # 81:

There was a little bit of mold on that bread you had this morning.

Reason for Terror # 80:

When evening falls, you can try to drive away; but the moon will be following... always following...