National State of Alert:
(as of 3-8-04)

Personal State of Alert:
(as of 3-8-04)

Reason for Personal State of Alert:
- So this is post-college life? Really? *shivers*

- The Passion of Christ featured a deleted scene where Christ called me out and told me "You're next"

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As I Am...
2002-02-09 - 3:18 a.m.

"Pull me out of the aircrash, pull me out of the lake, cuz I'm your superhero... we are standing on the edge" -Radiohead

Okay, it's 3:22 am. My upstairs neighbor is a dike friend from Lambda and her brother- they should NOT be playing loud music! What's up with that!

I just returned from the club- saw a buncha faces I haven't seen in awhile, saw a buncha faces I haven't seen in awhile as females. Shaun, my ex, was once again performing in drag, as well as another (truth-or-dare-kissing) friend, Anthony, as Melissa and Wednesday, respectively. It was quite the experience... as Shaun was wearing an outfit which consisted of fake 20s on top of fake boobs and a very real groinal region... and that was it. Nakedness. That sure brought back memories. Naked memories.

And what else... hmmm... I learned a bit more about gay politics. I felt a little out of it and uncomfortable at times, but I was always myself, at the very least. And I was attracted to someone who others generally consider "dorky" er something... and so, unfortunately, that painted a bad picture in my head and I backed off a little. What can I say... I'm attracted to "dorkier" types... only I forget that there's a reason they are a bit "out of the loop;" there's usually something that they don't quite understand or have gotten over. But still- no one's perfect... so it's cool when finding out the misperfection's out the way. Something like that.

LOWER YOUR FUCKING MUSIC UPSTAIRS PEOPLE! I miss my earplugs. Anyone wanna take me to Walmart?

So yeah... I'm thinking I'm growing into being more of an ass. I dunno why this is... perhaps I do... perhaps I'm just kinda bored, and so being more blunt is amusing me. I've been speaking my mind without censorship lately. It's gotten me into a little bit of trouble, possibly... but- it's like... I just don't care. I'm still mostly not lying; maybe exaggerating a little, but gah. I hope the people I've said stuff to don't take it the wrong way. I do care for 'em a lot. Ah well.

"Ever since I was young, I had no choice- but it's okay to lead me on, I must admit it's not much fun, to be lead on by such a one, as you are" -Travis

Reason for Terror # 82:

Using phrase "da bomb" unwittingly in phone tapped conversations could lead to arrest and beatings by the FBI, local authorities, and hip police.

Reason for Terror # 81:

There was a little bit of mold on that bread you had this morning.

Reason for Terror # 80:

When evening falls, you can try to drive away; but the moon will be following... always following...